is it just me?

Is anyone else struck by the fact that the copious amount of dry humping Lady Gaga does is to well, guys that ain't gonna be interested? In other words, Ga, if you Gay It Up to the extreme it looks a little silly.

It stops being sexy and goes straight to bad camp. You lost me at bowl haircut. Can you imagine that conversation?

Agent "The good news is Gaga wants you, she thinks you'd be hot in Allejandro. The bad news is you gotta get this Three Stooges haircut."

Agent "Ok, you got the part in Teeth, but you can't start laughing when the dude does that weird hoe down thing with the crop, k?"

There's enough faux Gay Swag to make one wonder if the person directing the film has any real exposure to real gay people. I mean, who knew gay men hung out in leather swag with fishnets on?

Allejandro is a 'homage to gay love and how brave it is' (paraphrasing) but WTH is deciding the bizarre swag is making the character 'gay'? And Ga, really? I don't think (if that's Allejandro) you gotta break up with him. I'm thinking maybe Gaga simply has her own version of gay men, who all dress like that and wanna do her.

It's like Gaga is backed my the S&M version of The Village People. FFS.

And while we are homaging, perhaps someone could point out to Ms. Ga that lesbians are gay people too. And while I shudder to think how they'd be portrayed, at least her chances of being considered desirable by her homaged in video co-stars might increase.

Tick tick..

Ok, got home from gym, slugged down the Alive elixir so we'll see. Although in fairness I can't really think it would make a change in two days. If it hasn't then I'll pass out in about 90 minutes.

I've started driving to the school early so I can crash in my car rather then trying to stay awake and drive,lol.

Expecting both he vid and the kettlebell stuff today. Should be interesting. I hope it's interesting. Exercise freakin bores me to tears. Seriously, I've knitted while using the bicycling thingy at the gym.

I hate that machine so no I try and listen to a book and watch tv while on the Elliptical or whatever. Problem with that is I always seem to end up under the machine with Today on it and it takes about five minutes before I want to knock Kathy Lee and whatever her name is head's together.

They are usually right next to Rachel Ray. Who had super fat ladies on complaining about no 'Fat Fashion'. Yeah, all I could think of was me fifteen years, ten years, five years ago thinking the same way. Give those really fat ladies a few years and when the body starts to complain finding clothes isn't gonna look like quite the injustice it seems.

As if not making clothes over a size 18/20 to 22/24 is a Hate Crime. Priorities ladies, trust me. The turning point for me, besides my health? When I realised I'd never seen a really old really fat lady advocating for fat acceptance. In fact, while I see lots of old ladies all the time, I never see a really old really fat lady.

And the older ones I've seen, have all been in scooters. You can accept all you want to , but we were all pretty much born with the same skeletal structure. As far as the myth of Fat and Fit when you look at skeletons of obese folks, the bones show signs of strain and sometimes even fracture.

And if you are reading this and any of it rings a bell, please, take care of yourself before you hit forty, cause at 45 this shit is hard, yo (as my friend knotworkshop says). Looking back I realise my whole fat acceptance insistence was really defensiveness. It's not normal, it's not healthy and frankly, while I think everyone is entitled to be how ever heavy they choose to be, gone are the days when I think it's just oky doky anymore then I can be convinced being a smoker is.

It simply defies logic.

So this is next Alive Multi Vitamin Liquid had the husband pick some up.

Was looking for the shake, but eh, the shop doesn't have it and the shipping took two weeks just to start. I'm not really one for vitamins, but I'm getting a little desperate. The pills, you take three a day. I can chuck pills back like a champ but three a day? Plus there's that whole do they digest thing.

So I'll let you know. The price is pretty good $22 at Vitamin Shoppe (I hate that extra E crap). Since we don't have insurance just going ot he doc and getting a work up isn't feasible. Niether is sleeping all afternoon. It pisses me off and it's really hard to get out of bed once nap time is over.

I will say the Apple Cider vinegar is great for allergies. I've been off Claritin since I started taking it and while I have angry and not sensitive skin, I haven't had any break outs. Go figure. I started keeping the bottle on the sink back in the kitchen.

That way I can remember to dose and ew, I recommend skipping the sweetener. I know that's the common way but yuck.

My hope (kinda gave up on 'plan' for the interim) is to start making stuff Monday. There's a November show I might get invited to for soap and well, I need soap. Not simply the promise of.

Got a subscription for Farro though Amazon, that stuff is crazy pricey if you can find it at any of our local shops.

I'm TRYING to consider this month a month of transition. You know, like any day now I'll come out of this brain fog and lose a damn pound.

p.s. It tastes like those 'green' drinks or Green Machine or similar. I don't know what those "tastes awful" folks were whining about. I had mine straight but it would be pretty unnoticeable in a smoothie.

WTH?

So I continue to lose and gain the same five pounds, pretty much. Yeah muscle weighs more, blah, blah, beleive me, I'm am authority on all that shit. But that aside, I'm having this bizarre chocolate covered donut freak out.

Bizarre because I don't eat chocolate covered donuts. Not since geeze, I was like what 19? And then a steady diet of substances was supplemented by chocolate milk, Hostess chocolate covered donuts and smokes.

But I'm like, in Safeway and this overwhelming I'm going to freak out of I don't eat some right NOW and like a BAG full happens. And no, I didn't get any but they haunt me still...

I mean, it's not even good junk food fcol, maybe have a wax deficiency or something. Cause if I recall, that's pretty much what they are coated with.

Kettlebell

So if you don't hear from me for more then a few days it's because I've hurled the damn thing through the TV or it landed on my head or something.

I got this one because it has beginner to whatever levels. I can only assume this video is not representative of the beginner level.

Oh and yes, my gym has classes. But the classes have people in them.

Also trying Apple Cider Vinegar I took it ages ago and while I can't attest to weight loss, it did seem to help with the daily retching. So hopefully it will again. At some point the puking gets really old. Like, about two years ago.

I'll keep you posted, maybe try all this for a month and then report back. As it stands, it's been about a month and I'm just now not wanting to pass out every afternoon because of this exercise that's supposed to give me more energy.

I'm not sure who these more energized folks are, but I ain't seeing it.

Not made a thing in three weeks now, online business? What online business?

*sigh*

Hey, uh...

Just wanted to give a 'I'm alive.' notice. Lots of stuff to tell, lots not to as well. Going to try something called kettlebell and some chakra clearing Kundalini yoga. For those who are going 'huh?' Kundalini is yoga that is not boring. I know it looks weird, but it kicks your cosmically enlightmented ass.

Oh and it's all spiritual and stuff, but mostly, it isn't boring. Plus the people who practice it look crazy happy. I could use some happy, less crazy, or at least not you know, more crazy. Still doing Hatha yoga once a week but yeah, standing still and breathing makes me kinda antsy. Kundalini is breathing and moving and all kinds of stuff happening at once. So I don't end up mentally writing my grocery list or something.

So I'm trying this Maya Fiennes covers chakras as well. What the hell, ya know? Next Saturday I'll be 44 and frankly, I don't care to keep going on like this and now that I'm determined to keep going and worried about not being able to, I'll give it a go.

Hey, did you know you can get these cool things called 'Playaways' at the library? They are little MP3 players with the book loaded. I have something plugged in most times, another playing in the car, another on the iTouch at the gym.

Car = The Turn of the Screw
Gym= The Black Dahlia
House= Insomnia

Uh, my state of mind isn't necessary represented by those choices...

Yeah, whatever.

"I do apologize for any ill informed or harsh decisions and actions made by our Support team. I can only ask for the understanding that we can make mistakes. We are human beings working at a high capacity. If you find that any actions made by our Support team have been made erroneously or without all the information, we encourage you to contact us privately and to explain what has happened. When we are in the wrong, we can and will reverse our decisions. "

This was Are You There God, It's me, Margaret's apology for shutting down shops who deigned to take umbrage (well deserved) at the Tiny Tim workplace extravaganza.

Just human beings? Really? And here I thought the Etsy staff was a Super Human Alien Race. Of course, they'd be the worst Super Humans EVER.

It always cracks me up when assholes use the 'just a human being' card. BP 'just people'. Guess what? People can SUCK and be gigantic ASSHOLES.

LOTS of human beings are NOT assholes. It doesn't go hand in hand. Honest.

"Working at a high capacity" really? Again, lots of people work without sucking. In fact, to consider anything at Etsy 'working at a high capacity' is ludicrous. Yes, it was the stress, really.


Thank God these people aren't cops or firefighters.

And speaking from personal expierence, going to Support will make you want to eat your own face.