Is a dish best served cold.
Monday, June 7, 2010
Monday's Fable
The Ass in the Lion's Skin
An Ass, having put on the Lion's skin, roamed about in the forest
and amused himself by frightening all the foolish animals he met
in his wanderings.
At last coming upon a Fox, he tried to
frighten him also, but the Fox no sooner heard the sound of his
voice than he exclaimed, "I might possibly have been frightened
myself, if I had not heard your bray."
Clothes may disguise a fool, but his words will give him away.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Things I've done thus far.
I just love an opportunity to say thus. Anyhow, thus far I have gone to the gym six out of seven days for two weeks. Just cardio at this point. It has helped tremendously with the depression which is a huge relief as I really don't want to start med fiddling again, I'd like to stay on the minimum.
I've lost *sigh* 1.5 pounds,lol.
I did a lot of baking over this weekend. Once you wean yourself off sugary stuff (thanks Andrew) it's startling how little sweet one needs to taste sweet. I've used applesauce instead of butter and banana instead of sugar in three muffin recipes so far and you know what, they taste good.
You know, taste does change. I made sausage and scrambled eggs and made it through three bites before I had to give it to the dogs. So I made a fritatta with egg, all kind of veggies and scarfed it. The secret is to sprinkle Panko breadcrumbs on top and broil until it browned.
I'm sure most of it is Andrew, but whatever works. I just don't want sugary stuff. Bready stuff or even a lot of cooked foods.
The boy is grudgingly getting used to it. My husband is thrilled.
Of course I have baggied everything into single slices for portion control and gone mad bagging servings of fruits and berries and veggies. Summer is fantastic for berries, wow. Greek yogurt is a Godsend.
I'm still tired but less so. Of course everything is a mess as crashing in the afternoon does take up ones time.
I downloaded some flylady type app for the house. I can't stand the original, she makes me want to wallow in sloth for some reason, but this app is a bit more, well, less OCOA/OCD like.
That starts Monday. That will be the biggest challenge as I tend to wander about the house feeling overwhelmed and accomplishing very little.
I also closed my Twitter account. I had this lightbulb moment when I had to Google to find out what IRL meant. Though maybe I should spend more time IN it. The BIG change? PC goes OFF at 4PM. And no PC on the weekends. Obviously this starts Monday,lol.
I still haven't relisted anything on Etsy and that feels pretty good. Things will expire in a few weeks and I'll be done. I want to focus on the uppityminions.com site no more pimps for me, thanks.
So as much as I hate being optimistic, it's not a bad start. Bagging food on the weekends makes it super convenient, even more so then opening a box of cereal, or ok, as convenient. I tend to eat for fuel, so whatever is easiest is what gets eaten.
Oh and water, did you know you can drink the stuff?
I've lost *sigh* 1.5 pounds,lol.
I did a lot of baking over this weekend. Once you wean yourself off sugary stuff (thanks Andrew) it's startling how little sweet one needs to taste sweet. I've used applesauce instead of butter and banana instead of sugar in three muffin recipes so far and you know what, they taste good.
You know, taste does change. I made sausage and scrambled eggs and made it through three bites before I had to give it to the dogs. So I made a fritatta with egg, all kind of veggies and scarfed it. The secret is to sprinkle Panko breadcrumbs on top and broil until it browned.
I'm sure most of it is Andrew, but whatever works. I just don't want sugary stuff. Bready stuff or even a lot of cooked foods.
The boy is grudgingly getting used to it. My husband is thrilled.
Of course I have baggied everything into single slices for portion control and gone mad bagging servings of fruits and berries and veggies. Summer is fantastic for berries, wow. Greek yogurt is a Godsend.
I'm still tired but less so. Of course everything is a mess as crashing in the afternoon does take up ones time.
I downloaded some flylady type app for the house. I can't stand the original, she makes me want to wallow in sloth for some reason, but this app is a bit more, well, less OCOA/OCD like.
That starts Monday. That will be the biggest challenge as I tend to wander about the house feeling overwhelmed and accomplishing very little.
I also closed my Twitter account. I had this lightbulb moment when I had to Google to find out what IRL meant. Though maybe I should spend more time IN it. The BIG change? PC goes OFF at 4PM. And no PC on the weekends. Obviously this starts Monday,lol.
I still haven't relisted anything on Etsy and that feels pretty good. Things will expire in a few weeks and I'll be done. I want to focus on the uppityminions.com site no more pimps for me, thanks.
So as much as I hate being optimistic, it's not a bad start. Bagging food on the weekends makes it super convenient, even more so then opening a box of cereal, or ok, as convenient. I tend to eat for fuel, so whatever is easiest is what gets eaten.
Oh and water, did you know you can drink the stuff?
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Yoga for Weight Loss
Yoga for Weight LossThis one is good. Trust me. I've been through so many that are like 'Now bring your chest to your knees and I'm like "It's already THERE, bitch." Or "Hold downward dog for four minutes while inhaling deeply." uh, yeah, ok. No.
This is Yoga for round people. Later I'll show you this nifty Kundalini DVD but I have to get near Kundalini ready. Plus Suzanne doesn't make you want to hurl the damn mat at her head. Always a plus.
I'll also have a almond meal blueberry muffin recipe that has no butter or oil or sugar (or very little) and still makes you want to eat too many of them.
This is Yoga for round people. Later I'll show you this nifty Kundalini DVD but I have to get near Kundalini ready. Plus Suzanne doesn't make you want to hurl the damn mat at her head. Always a plus.
I'll also have a almond meal blueberry muffin recipe that has no butter or oil or sugar (or very little) and still makes you want to eat too many of them.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Duh..
You know how below I mention trying to suss a few things out? Well, it finally dawned on me that stopping all my unhealthy self destructive behaviors was great and all, but there was no follow up.
What I mean is, when you do nothing to actively care for yourself it's really passive self abuse. I know...big freakin light bulb there. So you know, yay for me for stopping everything when I became a Mom.
But that was ten years ago.
On some level I've continued to abuse myself, just not actively. Just not actively. And I mean that in the literal sense not the oft abused literally. It never occurred to me to replace behaviors. Just to stop.
Instead of treating myself poorly I guess I just kinda ignored me cause i didn't know what else to do and that was enough, hard enough, for a good while.
That was stupid.
So I'm telling you this, gentle reader, in case you chance to find yourself in the same proverbial boat. A really, really big boat.
It's good to stop doing harmful things. But that isn't where it ends. Self neglect is just as dysfunctional, just as harmful, just not as obvious as all the behaviors that proceeded it. Wasn't to me, anyway.
Damn.
What I mean is, when you do nothing to actively care for yourself it's really passive self abuse. I know...big freakin light bulb there. So you know, yay for me for stopping everything when I became a Mom.
But that was ten years ago.
On some level I've continued to abuse myself, just not actively. Just not actively. And I mean that in the literal sense not the oft abused literally. It never occurred to me to replace behaviors. Just to stop.
Instead of treating myself poorly I guess I just kinda ignored me cause i didn't know what else to do and that was enough, hard enough, for a good while.
That was stupid.
So I'm telling you this, gentle reader, in case you chance to find yourself in the same proverbial boat. A really, really big boat.
It's good to stop doing harmful things. But that isn't where it ends. Self neglect is just as dysfunctional, just as harmful, just not as obvious as all the behaviors that proceeded it. Wasn't to me, anyway.
Damn.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
We all get older, if we are lucky anyway.
So part of this whole 'don't be so sick your husband has to take care of you' thing has been getting to the gym. Eating well, blahs, blah. And it's exhausting. Where is the damned lying liar pants that told me I'd 'have more energy'?
Probably taking a nap somewhere.
Plus the husband got a job, thank God, short term but pays rent, and has to get up at (wait for it) five a.m. This means me. Because I don't trust him to get up with an alarm. Not a morning person. Not even a mid morning person.
So this all started about a week ago. Funny how you just can't cram more stuff in a finite day. I haven't made a damn thing in over a week which is kind of refreshing but I'm waiting for the energy Mr. Pinocchio Face promised me because our show is in less then two weeks.
Plus the site, etc.
I'm even spending quality time with Andrew Johnson, everyday now. I'm sure that subconsciously I am a very Positive Person. In addition to not wanting to eat Fattening Foods.
But I haven't quite figured out how the hell I'm supposed to cram all this in or well, how to get the energy to do so without downing a Monster. I am so very ready for Summer as the school thing will be one big less thing to do. I am a firm beleiver in letting one's child sleep til noon and play video games for five hours at least for the first week or so.
This is mostly for my benefit.
So I'm at the gym and I'm slogging along 'getting healthy'. I start to think how odd it is that I'll be 44 this month (how that happened I can't say) and here I am listening to Agent Orange and The Adolescents , Christian Death and some Adam Ant (it was old school meets really HOT guy mix) all fat and tired and married and stuff.
Then it occurred to me that with the exception of Henry Rollins who has some weird Dorian Gray thing going on (and is the only person I've seen give Christopher Walken the willies) that we are ALL older now.
Well, those of us still alive anyhow. I guess mindset has very little to do with youth. Although there are more pressing things to be angry about now and well, lets just say the lifestyle changed. Hence the still alive part.
I still think of like, Social Distortion of being like they were when I was fifteen and then you see a vid and go "Wow, dude.."
Ok, except Billy Idol who has aged in what I can only imagine is part of a pact with Satan but it's Billy, so it's ok, all is forgiven. I mean, have you SEEN the guy?
I got really fat. While not shocking it's embarrassing. It's something I feel I have to explain before anyone who knew me sees me. As if they would miss it, right? As if somehow I don't know really, I haven't quite puzzled that out, but it's not a positive.
AND now I'm almost 44. WTF? I don't wanna start over... Can't I just go back in the Way Back Machine and leave a 'Do not get fat' sticky on my leather corset or something? You know, something that will give me a heads up.
Dear Holly,
You will live a lot longer then you are trying to. Despite your best efforts. Please, consider this before you get really fat. And then don't. Because then dying, by then, is something you really want to avoid.
Whatever,
Me
Let's just say the whole Future Concept is not a familiar one. I didn't think or care, really, that I'd get older and now it just pisses me off.
Anyway, I'll be really annoyed if I post this rambling missive and then keel over. God forbid, please. We've had to start over financially, I guess this is part of that package. It's a really shitty package and I'd like to exchange it for a better one. But you know, the literal and the literary don't often mesh.
Thats all really, just mulling it all over. Thankful to be here, but wish I'd prepared for the journey.
(ps. Andrew Johnson is not code for anything involving a penis. Although I do assume he has one. Not that I dwell on it. Andrew (read below post) is a hypnotherapist/Reiki Master. I'm doing his self hypnosis program. Cheeky monkey.)
Probably taking a nap somewhere.
Plus the husband got a job, thank God, short term but pays rent, and has to get up at (wait for it) five a.m. This means me. Because I don't trust him to get up with an alarm. Not a morning person. Not even a mid morning person.
So this all started about a week ago. Funny how you just can't cram more stuff in a finite day. I haven't made a damn thing in over a week which is kind of refreshing but I'm waiting for the energy Mr. Pinocchio Face promised me because our show is in less then two weeks.
Plus the site, etc.
I'm even spending quality time with Andrew Johnson, everyday now. I'm sure that subconsciously I am a very Positive Person. In addition to not wanting to eat Fattening Foods.
But I haven't quite figured out how the hell I'm supposed to cram all this in or well, how to get the energy to do so without downing a Monster. I am so very ready for Summer as the school thing will be one big less thing to do. I am a firm beleiver in letting one's child sleep til noon and play video games for five hours at least for the first week or so.
This is mostly for my benefit.
So I'm at the gym and I'm slogging along 'getting healthy'. I start to think how odd it is that I'll be 44 this month (how that happened I can't say) and here I am listening to Agent Orange and The Adolescents , Christian Death and some Adam Ant (it was old school meets really HOT guy mix) all fat and tired and married and stuff.
Then it occurred to me that with the exception of Henry Rollins who has some weird Dorian Gray thing going on (and is the only person I've seen give Christopher Walken the willies) that we are ALL older now.
Well, those of us still alive anyhow. I guess mindset has very little to do with youth. Although there are more pressing things to be angry about now and well, lets just say the lifestyle changed. Hence the still alive part.
I still think of like, Social Distortion of being like they were when I was fifteen and then you see a vid and go "Wow, dude.."
Ok, except Billy Idol who has aged in what I can only imagine is part of a pact with Satan but it's Billy, so it's ok, all is forgiven. I mean, have you SEEN the guy?
I got really fat. While not shocking it's embarrassing. It's something I feel I have to explain before anyone who knew me sees me. As if they would miss it, right? As if somehow I don't know really, I haven't quite puzzled that out, but it's not a positive.
AND now I'm almost 44. WTF? I don't wanna start over... Can't I just go back in the Way Back Machine and leave a 'Do not get fat' sticky on my leather corset or something? You know, something that will give me a heads up.
Dear Holly,
You will live a lot longer then you are trying to. Despite your best efforts. Please, consider this before you get really fat. And then don't. Because then dying, by then, is something you really want to avoid.
Whatever,
Me
Let's just say the whole Future Concept is not a familiar one. I didn't think or care, really, that I'd get older and now it just pisses me off.
Anyway, I'll be really annoyed if I post this rambling missive and then keel over. God forbid, please. We've had to start over financially, I guess this is part of that package. It's a really shitty package and I'd like to exchange it for a better one. But you know, the literal and the literary don't often mesh.
Thats all really, just mulling it all over. Thankful to be here, but wish I'd prepared for the journey.
(ps. Andrew Johnson is not code for anything involving a penis. Although I do assume he has one. Not that I dwell on it. Andrew (read below post) is a hypnotherapist/Reiki Master. I'm doing his self hypnosis program. Cheeky monkey.)
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