Monday, July 25, 2011
Well, that kinda sucks.
I am 42.6 percent fat. I should be between 30 and 34 percent. There's something to work on...
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Day Nine
Yesterday was a little hard. kept thinking about toast and cake. SO much so that I got a piece of raisin bread out of the freezer (Oregon Trail, good stuff). My thinking was that since I was eating veggies and fruit plus juicing that this would be fine. I can't follow that line of reasoning either.
Then I realised I was one day eight and it was kind of stupid to blow it for something that will still be there a week from now. That is a big part of my eating problem. For a long time as a teen and when was pregnant with my first food was not something on hand. So you ate as much as possible when it was.
This carried over as feeling anxious anytime I got hungry. The subconcious is a wonderful thing, but I have learned that it is not very smart. It takes the worst case scenario and preps you for that even when you are no longer in that sort of environment.
This can result in all sorts of things like creating drama so you can cope with it and eating too much because it's there. For starters.
Because it's well, sub conscious it's sneaky so you have to go through a constant ritual of double checking. Do I really want/need to react/behave this way or is this an old ingrained survival pattern?
As you get older, hopefully, things that saved your life became unnecessary. Problem is, your subconsious is the last to know and skeptical to boot. Sometimes it's no big deal, other times it results in marrying someone just like your abusive parent.
Unless you bring your subconscious to the surface and show it that hey, everything IS BETTER now, you will create and recreate what you've survived, not (and I don't get this) what you flourish in. There is a very important difference here. Surviving means you keep breathing, it's really not that great. But, we tend to settle for it because for a long time, that was the best we could hope for.
Now we are all grown up. We can make decisions. We can defend ourselves and try new things without terrible ramifications. We can be treated well without it being a set up. All kinds of nifty things.
But here I am at 45 looking at a fucking piece of raisin bread. Actually, there is a lot of it, when we do have money I buy and store all the food I can. This is an example of a helpful survival behavior. But the low level panic that led me to the freezer? Not so much.
Unless raisin bread thieves break in and make it past the dogs (ha ha) it will still be there (no one else likes it) when I've done with day fifteen. I realized too that some of this comes from my husbands current job ended with no next one in sight and enough money to just cover bills for August. That old 'store up' now urge is always there, but I don't think raisin bread is going to make a difference. Logically.
Subconsciously, I'm still working on that. Just like I'm working on not creating horrific scenarios (in my head) that God willing will never happen so I'll 'be prepared'. Not only is it false security but it's grotesque and needing to do that was a big part of my WTF?! moment. Who thinks that shit up? Well, me.
So now I stop.
Having the dogs is why I no longer map out an escape plan every night 'just in case'. But I don't think they can help me with the raisin bread. It's very funny to me, really, to have come through (for the most part) what I have and still have this minute long conversation with a piece of bread in plastic wrap.
ANYway, I'm not sure if I'm very clear (I gave up on concise four paragraphs ago) but what I'm saying is that it's good to slow down and check yourself every now and again. It's hard when you are a head dweller, but being out really isn't that bad.
If I honestly take stock of the why of what I do, I can see there are still some behaviors that don't jive with now. Now is where I am, I'd like to live there as well as possible.
Then I realised I was one day eight and it was kind of stupid to blow it for something that will still be there a week from now. That is a big part of my eating problem. For a long time as a teen and when was pregnant with my first food was not something on hand. So you ate as much as possible when it was.
This carried over as feeling anxious anytime I got hungry. The subconcious is a wonderful thing, but I have learned that it is not very smart. It takes the worst case scenario and preps you for that even when you are no longer in that sort of environment.
This can result in all sorts of things like creating drama so you can cope with it and eating too much because it's there. For starters.
Because it's well, sub conscious it's sneaky so you have to go through a constant ritual of double checking. Do I really want/need to react/behave this way or is this an old ingrained survival pattern?
As you get older, hopefully, things that saved your life became unnecessary. Problem is, your subconsious is the last to know and skeptical to boot. Sometimes it's no big deal, other times it results in marrying someone just like your abusive parent.
Unless you bring your subconscious to the surface and show it that hey, everything IS BETTER now, you will create and recreate what you've survived, not (and I don't get this) what you flourish in. There is a very important difference here. Surviving means you keep breathing, it's really not that great. But, we tend to settle for it because for a long time, that was the best we could hope for.
Now we are all grown up. We can make decisions. We can defend ourselves and try new things without terrible ramifications. We can be treated well without it being a set up. All kinds of nifty things.
But here I am at 45 looking at a fucking piece of raisin bread. Actually, there is a lot of it, when we do have money I buy and store all the food I can. This is an example of a helpful survival behavior. But the low level panic that led me to the freezer? Not so much.
Unless raisin bread thieves break in and make it past the dogs (ha ha) it will still be there (no one else likes it) when I've done with day fifteen. I realized too that some of this comes from my husbands current job ended with no next one in sight and enough money to just cover bills for August. That old 'store up' now urge is always there, but I don't think raisin bread is going to make a difference. Logically.
Subconsciously, I'm still working on that. Just like I'm working on not creating horrific scenarios (in my head) that God willing will never happen so I'll 'be prepared'. Not only is it false security but it's grotesque and needing to do that was a big part of my WTF?! moment. Who thinks that shit up? Well, me.
So now I stop.
Having the dogs is why I no longer map out an escape plan every night 'just in case'. But I don't think they can help me with the raisin bread. It's very funny to me, really, to have come through (for the most part) what I have and still have this minute long conversation with a piece of bread in plastic wrap.
ANYway, I'm not sure if I'm very clear (I gave up on concise four paragraphs ago) but what I'm saying is that it's good to slow down and check yourself every now and again. It's hard when you are a head dweller, but being out really isn't that bad.
If I honestly take stock of the why of what I do, I can see there are still some behaviors that don't jive with now. Now is where I am, I'd like to live there as well as possible.
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
I love you Tim! *screaming fan girl sound*
Dude, if this doesn't fix any funk, enlighten any chore, then well, you must suck or something. Or you are my husband. But in all fairness there are some cultural divides too wide to consider crossing, I'm listing to the whole original soundtrack while cleaning the kitchen. SO awesome.
I think what gets missed often is the caliber of acting and the really well done soundtrack. I'm mean, yeah, it's campy as hell, but it's no B Movie.
Shoot, he's even hot in Muppet Treasure Island.
I think what gets missed often is the caliber of acting and the really well done soundtrack. I'm mean, yeah, it's campy as hell, but it's no B Movie.
Shoot, he's even hot in Muppet Treasure Island.
Whatever.
No running, for two weeks minimum. Not a shin splint but an issue with Plantar and Dorsal Flexation (mostly that mine doesn't) that hooks into my Periformas being tighter then insert metaphor of your liking here.
My trainer is moving. Good news is my new one is getting his PT/OT Degree and interning while training. So it's like free PT. Sort of. So now we get to work on fixing me.
Not having bionic parts really sucks.
My trainer is moving. Good news is my new one is getting his PT/OT Degree and interning while training. So it's like free PT. Sort of. So now we get to work on fixing me.
Not having bionic parts really sucks.
Monday, July 18, 2011
July Pics
Funniest discovery? Being at the gym and realizing I have a crotch. Usually there would be the fat apron hanging over most of that. Not that I'm all about you looking at my crotch, but if you click on the pics and zoom in you can see the difference.
Those pants used to be snug. My biggest challenge remains the inner tube abdomen. My hips are now 47 (down from 50) but my gut is still 48 (down from 52). But that can only get better.
Random Nutritional Fact
or something else I didn't know.
"The Best Food for Bones: Fruits and Vegetables
Millions of women have been falsely led to believe that there is a correlation between osteoporosis and the inadequate intake of dairy foods. Bone health is much more than just calcium. Vegetables, beans, fruits, and nuts are rich sources of calcium, potassium, vitamin K, magnesium, and vegetable protein, as well as the phytochemicals and micronutrients that are gaining recognition to be important for bone strength. Calcium is an important component, but like protein, we don’t need as much of it as most people think. The current U.S. daily calcium recommendation of 1200 to 1500 milligrams for postmenopausal women is an attempt to offset the ill-effects of the Standard American Diet which creates excessive calcium loss in the urine because most people consume so much sodium, caffeine and animal protein.
Contrary to popular belief, you do not need dairy products to get sufficient calcium. Every natural food contains calcium. When you eat a healthy diet, rich in natural foods such as vegetables, beans, nuts, and seeds, it is impossible not to obtain sufficient calcium. In fact, the addition of more natural plant foods to the diet has been shown to have a powerful effect on increasing bone density and bone health. Fruits and vegetables strengthen bones. Researchers found that those who eat the most fruits and vegetables have denser bones.4 These researchers concluded that fruits and vegetables are not only rich in potassium, magnesium, calcium and other nutrients essential for bone health, but, because they are alkaline, not acid-producing, they do not induce urinary calcium loss. Green vegetables, in particular have a powerful effect on reducing hip fractures, for they are not only rich in calcium, but other nutrients as well, such a vitamin K, which is crucial for bone health.5
So most unprocessed, natural foods contain calcium and green vegetables have particularly high levels. In fact, one four-ounce serving of steamed collards or kale has about the same amount of calcium as one cup of milk. Take a look at some natural foods and their approximated calcium levels.
Bok-choy two cups …………………….. 300 mg
Broccoli, two cups . . . . . . . . . ………… 150 mg
Collard greens, two cups . . . . . . . . . . . . 600 mg
Calcium-fortified orange juice (8 oz) . . 300 mg
Garbanzo beans, one cup . . . . . . . . . . . 150 mg
Kale, two cups . . . . . . . . . . . . ………… 350 mg
Milk one cup ……………………………...300 mg
Orange (one) ……………………………….60 mg
Romaine Lettuce 4 cups…………………150 mg
Sesame seeds ¼ cup…………………….350 mg
Soybeans, one cup . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 175 mg
Spinach, two cups…………………………500 mg
Sweet potato, two cups . . . . . . . . . . . . . 150 mg
Tahini (sesame seed paste) two tbsp. . ..300 mg"
source: drfuhrman.com
"The Best Food for Bones: Fruits and Vegetables
Millions of women have been falsely led to believe that there is a correlation between osteoporosis and the inadequate intake of dairy foods. Bone health is much more than just calcium. Vegetables, beans, fruits, and nuts are rich sources of calcium, potassium, vitamin K, magnesium, and vegetable protein, as well as the phytochemicals and micronutrients that are gaining recognition to be important for bone strength. Calcium is an important component, but like protein, we don’t need as much of it as most people think. The current U.S. daily calcium recommendation of 1200 to 1500 milligrams for postmenopausal women is an attempt to offset the ill-effects of the Standard American Diet which creates excessive calcium loss in the urine because most people consume so much sodium, caffeine and animal protein.
Contrary to popular belief, you do not need dairy products to get sufficient calcium. Every natural food contains calcium. When you eat a healthy diet, rich in natural foods such as vegetables, beans, nuts, and seeds, it is impossible not to obtain sufficient calcium. In fact, the addition of more natural plant foods to the diet has been shown to have a powerful effect on increasing bone density and bone health. Fruits and vegetables strengthen bones. Researchers found that those who eat the most fruits and vegetables have denser bones.4 These researchers concluded that fruits and vegetables are not only rich in potassium, magnesium, calcium and other nutrients essential for bone health, but, because they are alkaline, not acid-producing, they do not induce urinary calcium loss. Green vegetables, in particular have a powerful effect on reducing hip fractures, for they are not only rich in calcium, but other nutrients as well, such a vitamin K, which is crucial for bone health.5
So most unprocessed, natural foods contain calcium and green vegetables have particularly high levels. In fact, one four-ounce serving of steamed collards or kale has about the same amount of calcium as one cup of milk. Take a look at some natural foods and their approximated calcium levels.
Bok-choy two cups …………………….. 300 mg
Broccoli, two cups . . . . . . . . . ………… 150 mg
Collard greens, two cups . . . . . . . . . . . . 600 mg
Calcium-fortified orange juice (8 oz) . . 300 mg
Garbanzo beans, one cup . . . . . . . . . . . 150 mg
Kale, two cups . . . . . . . . . . . . ………… 350 mg
Milk one cup ……………………………...300 mg
Orange (one) ……………………………….60 mg
Romaine Lettuce 4 cups…………………150 mg
Sesame seeds ¼ cup…………………….350 mg
Soybeans, one cup . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 175 mg
Spinach, two cups…………………………500 mg
Sweet potato, two cups . . . . . . . . . . . . . 150 mg
Tahini (sesame seed paste) two tbsp. . ..300 mg"
source: drfuhrman.com
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